MI dear feet..,
I dont think i can even imagine the struggle you have gone through in the process of bearing the burden of my extra pounds...but do not worry coz ur golden days are approaching very soon....as i feel really concerned for u.....and for ur golden days to come i think the focus shud shift to the belly....coz it has been leading a real luxurious life all these days...i have been pampering it day and night without realising its effect on you and the trauma u have gone through .....but my dear feet...u are an integral part of me and so i feel the need to be concerned about you ....and the day is not very far off when u will get all ur due rights...
adios
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
TEENAGE...!!!
The most complicated part of human life is being on the threshold of adulthood. It’s as if you have been pulled from your sweet and innocent childhood into a phase where you are supposed to behave like an adult and yet you are denied the status of an adult. Ironical isn’t it? It is at this stage of life that you will find a hundreds of hurdles to derail you from your track. When you go through this phase you may find yourself to be a victim of the “self-assumed” ruthless behavior of life but you fail to realize that all members of your peer group go through every part of this so called “ruthless” life. The important thing to note here is that when you have been pulled into it then why not face it and enjoy every bit of being a teenager. After all teenage is the most crucial yet the most joyous phase of life…
Insecurities are an integral part of teenage. Suddenly you find your shoulders are drooping down with the weight of responsibilities. You are absolutely clueless about making decisions for yourself because all these days you were laid back as this task was assigned to much more capable people than yourself. But “experience is the biggest teacher of life”. So you will find yourself to be enjoying the status of “adult in disguise” status. There is a first time for everything and you would genuinely agree with the fact that the first time can be so exciting. Like, the first time you withdrew money from the bank or the first time you travelled on your own or the first time you drove your dad’s huge looking bike. It is a feeling of an unusual pride and this pride will make you realize that you are no more a sweet and innocent kid but you have grown up and you start enjoying the status of a teenager.
But there’s comes the point when you start experimenting with things you shouldn’t be doing and you start assuming wrong things to be right and it is at this time that your strong supporting system comes to an aid. A strong support system will come to your rescue when you are in real need of it and can drag you out from the world of confusions and illusions.
Insecurities are an integral part of teenage. Suddenly you find your shoulders are drooping down with the weight of responsibilities. You are absolutely clueless about making decisions for yourself because all these days you were laid back as this task was assigned to much more capable people than yourself. But “experience is the biggest teacher of life”. So you will find yourself to be enjoying the status of “adult in disguise” status. There is a first time for everything and you would genuinely agree with the fact that the first time can be so exciting. Like, the first time you withdrew money from the bank or the first time you travelled on your own or the first time you drove your dad’s huge looking bike. It is a feeling of an unusual pride and this pride will make you realize that you are no more a sweet and innocent kid but you have grown up and you start enjoying the status of a teenager.
But there’s comes the point when you start experimenting with things you shouldn’t be doing and you start assuming wrong things to be right and it is at this time that your strong supporting system comes to an aid. A strong support system will come to your rescue when you are in real need of it and can drag you out from the world of confusions and illusions.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
mi first love ..!!
The biggest myth in this world is to think that love is an involuntary process. According to me it is the strangest phenomenon of the subconscious mind. It is said that there is no reason for falling in love but in my case there was.
I did not fall in love accidentally but I think I wanted it to happen.. May be I subconsciously craved to be in love, just to experience how it feels to have oodles of attention from the opposite sex. But in this process of diving into the ocean of love I lost the power of balancing the brain and the heart , I lost the control over my flooding emotions and expressions, I disobeyed my conscience for which I had to pay a huge cost in form of trust, dignity, self respect and most importantly concentration. Unable to bear the pressures which were compressing the small little lump of mass inside my skull I consciously decided to jump out of this ocean and thankfully there were few people who helped me to do so …. But one can leave his sins behind but it is difficult to wipe the stains of disgrace from one’s character……
I did not fall in love accidentally but I think I wanted it to happen.. May be I subconsciously craved to be in love, just to experience how it feels to have oodles of attention from the opposite sex. But in this process of diving into the ocean of love I lost the power of balancing the brain and the heart , I lost the control over my flooding emotions and expressions, I disobeyed my conscience for which I had to pay a huge cost in form of trust, dignity, self respect and most importantly concentration. Unable to bear the pressures which were compressing the small little lump of mass inside my skull I consciously decided to jump out of this ocean and thankfully there were few people who helped me to do so …. But one can leave his sins behind but it is difficult to wipe the stains of disgrace from one’s character……
i me, myself -- 2
One thing which I have discovered about myself is that I can perform well only when I have the right ambience for it. Off late the thing which is bugging me the most is “why I m not able to reach my own expectation levels” The levels which I have set for my own self. It’s not others expectations that bothers me more but I feel taken aback when I find myself failing to reach my own expectation levels. The answer which I give to myself is I have set some very rigid parameters for myself which are so inadaptable that they become the most convincing excuse to give for my bad performance. Another possible reason may be the kind of environment people have created around me. I feel I have dragged myself into the cobweb, totally against my principles which has resulted in the accidental collapse of my regular performing abilities.
Sometimes it so happens that I feel people who are the most close to me are also miles away from me … the reason again I think are my innumerable prerequisites… As far as my prerequisites are concerned I feel I would never get a person who would perfectly get into the vicinity of my prerequisites.. I can’t assure myself for that because you never know….. Don’t misunderstand my search for a perfect person to be merely related to a romantic liaison but this person can be a friend, a teacher, or may share any kind of relationship with me or may be a mere acquaintance... ironically if he/she fits into this category they wouldn’t remain a mere acquaintance… this theory of prerequisites may sometimes be conceived as arrogance but I know that it’s not arrogance but an integral part of my nature.
In this process of discovering myself I realized that I enjoy solitude to the highest degree. The three things which are the only sources of mental peace and satisfaction according to me are solitude, knowledge and spirituality. The more you explore these arenas the more you start enjoying them….
Sometimes it so happens that I feel people who are the most close to me are also miles away from me … the reason again I think are my innumerable prerequisites… As far as my prerequisites are concerned I feel I would never get a person who would perfectly get into the vicinity of my prerequisites.. I can’t assure myself for that because you never know….. Don’t misunderstand my search for a perfect person to be merely related to a romantic liaison but this person can be a friend, a teacher, or may share any kind of relationship with me or may be a mere acquaintance... ironically if he/she fits into this category they wouldn’t remain a mere acquaintance… this theory of prerequisites may sometimes be conceived as arrogance but I know that it’s not arrogance but an integral part of my nature.
In this process of discovering myself I realized that I enjoy solitude to the highest degree. The three things which are the only sources of mental peace and satisfaction according to me are solitude, knowledge and spirituality. The more you explore these arenas the more you start enjoying them….
i me,myself
I think the most difficult thing to do is introspection and I feel people, who are successful have mastered this art. Introspection leads you to perfection. It instigates the desire to be a better person each day and helps you to find your faults and their possible solutions.
When people are asked about what their goal in life is? Some people say it is getting into an institution or getting into the profession of their choice and it is not wrong to think so because there are people who are talented enough to reach their goals and are passionately driven towards it and that is the spirit one should have to achieve their respective goals and hats off to all those people who have such levels of dedication and passion because somehow I feel working hard and continuing with it for a long period of time is definitely not my cup of tea. Well, as far as my goal in life is concerned I always pray that I become a good human being in life and do whatever job to the best of my abilities. The fact is that I m not very ambitious…. No long term plans for me…. But I wish to do little things in a perfect manner….
Finally, coming to describing myself I feel I have two sides to my personality. One which people around me think I am and the one which is still unknown to many, the side which still remains undiscovered. As a human I too have plenty of negative qualities and I feel these are growing more in number as each day is passing by. I may sound pessimistic but this is how I m, continuously monitoring myself. But I don’t think it’s of any use because I don’t seem to be changing……… but there has been many changes in me because of a special person in my life .My hands are eagerly awaiting to write words of immense praise for this person but you will soon come to know who this person is? People who know me can make a guess…………
When people are asked about what their goal in life is? Some people say it is getting into an institution or getting into the profession of their choice and it is not wrong to think so because there are people who are talented enough to reach their goals and are passionately driven towards it and that is the spirit one should have to achieve their respective goals and hats off to all those people who have such levels of dedication and passion because somehow I feel working hard and continuing with it for a long period of time is definitely not my cup of tea. Well, as far as my goal in life is concerned I always pray that I become a good human being in life and do whatever job to the best of my abilities. The fact is that I m not very ambitious…. No long term plans for me…. But I wish to do little things in a perfect manner….
Finally, coming to describing myself I feel I have two sides to my personality. One which people around me think I am and the one which is still unknown to many, the side which still remains undiscovered. As a human I too have plenty of negative qualities and I feel these are growing more in number as each day is passing by. I may sound pessimistic but this is how I m, continuously monitoring myself. But I don’t think it’s of any use because I don’t seem to be changing……… but there has been many changes in me because of a special person in my life .My hands are eagerly awaiting to write words of immense praise for this person but you will soon come to know who this person is? People who know me can make a guess…………
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