ARTHASHASTRA

well..! Arthashastra's supposed to be the most lively inter-college fest hosted by St.Francis ...and indeed it was...! i never danced so madly before...(thanx to the DJ)... :D..!! here are the pics...and not to forget there were some marvellous eye candies... :P..!!

Chetan and Adonica...! both were like realli cute...!

there my classmates dancing to the tunes of DJ FALGUN...:D

honestly it was a little weird to see guys in our college...!! :P

sometimes its very painful to see people's sufferings...."why should they suffer..?" I question myself..... even if they have done good all through their life......!

It sometimes forces me ponder upon the concept of previous births and sins related to them.....it may be the case that these things said by our ancestors had some substance in it......! but Gen-X needs logic to everything ....we wants to question every thing that we feel is out of our limits....! yes, there are certain things which cannot be answered on a scientific basis....

why do we forget that we humans who think ourselves as the most supreme race are created by that power.....that power which can be felt at almost every single breath we take...the power without who's consent nothing can happen in this universe......the power which will some how make you bow and make you feel humble.....we are almost negligible in front of his omniscience ....believe in that power and I think we can derive ample will power to cope with all the thorns he places on our way of life...

"Our Father, Who art in heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come. Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.And lead us not into temptation,but deliver us from evil. Amen."

Life's continuously teaching new things....! helping me to clear out the fog between deep truth and falsity...clearing up some perceptions about people ,I always had about them....I think I m being very saddistic off late....I m only picking up the negative aura from people...making my mind a store house of evil thoughts....No No...this is not me....this is not who I m ...this is not the person i thought i would grow up like...
I need a positive aura...to cleanse my mind from this growing negativity...!

No you cannot grip me like this...I will strive hard and find my way...The lord is with me...he will help me finding my way towards a happy mind ,a happy life....!

"Everything around me is beautiful till I see it to be...."

LIFE AFTER DEATH....

It was a little mistake I made,

And you took it away from me ,

It was my life,

the greatest boon of the lord.

You sold it like goods,

not a moment you thought

and you took it away from me.

you dragged me to the end,

I loved my life like any other,

you deprived me of living,

Just for that little mistake.

You ruined the life of my beloved,

the mother who brought me to existence,

you least cared for her battered heart,

you took me away from her.

Now I m just a name,

there are memories I left behind,

which flow with the tears of my beloved.

Do not forget you ruthless being,

that thou shall have to face the end too,

and then thou shall know

the value of human life.

This is a curse from a pained soul,

thou has taken a life,

and thou shall never die in peace...!

Its all in the name !!

....TRISHNANTA means end of a desire.....quite not applicable for human beings who are known for their infinite desires.....

Let me give you a little history about I got this name....

Well the story goes back to the time my mum was in college.... and she had a friend who used to write novels....and the speciality of her books were the names she gave to her characters .... and thats where mum saw this name....and she liked it soo much that she decided to keep it for me....!!!

I always get a lot of attention more because of my name than anything else...hehe!!!...and also comments like..."why such a long name?"...or "i never heard of that one..." or "where did u find this word from??"...and i provide them with all explanations...lol

As a kid I used correct people a hundred times to pronounce it right...and they finally surrendered by callling me by my pet names..(i have dozens....)

whenever I changed my schools I used to be worried not about adjusting, but whether they'll get my name or not...well, I heard lot of versions of name.....Treeshantaa...Treeshulaam..(that was like really funny...!!)...Trishaantii....lol...and many others....

But I felt great when finally they were at ease calling me and well pronouncing it right....!!!As far as my friends are concerned they prefer caling me trish..(they think its cool and chik..!!) and I dont mind at all....;P...

Ahh..!! well In francis thankfully people got my name easily...the lecturers know me...and they dont cutshort my name for their convinience...hehe....

But I genuinely love my name.....and I know it will always set me apart....!!

DURGA PUJA ....

Durga puja is undoubtedly the most awaited and the biggest annual festivity amongst bengalis.....It is a week long celebration.....which includes ah..!! good food...meeting old family friends and obviously having a hell lot of fun....!

....this year the festivity was not as good as last year but still quite memorable....here are some pics...

tats me and Anesha didi(a close family friend)...and there's the Puja in the background


The Murti of Goddess Durga is the main attraction of the festivity.....

Now thats a traditional dance done with an earthen pot

and the drums in the background mark the beginning of the festival...

The best durga puja obviously happens in Kolkata....and each place the decoration is done with a theme.....so if u ever happen to be in Kolkata during the puja then nothing will please your eyes more than the festivity itself... and on that note

WISH YOU ALL A VERY HAPPY DUSSHERA ....

journey till date !

well...the journey of my blog has had a lot of crests and troughs .....but it has been a great one indeed.....!
I do not clearly remember how it all started...I mean how I started writing....!!! yes i did maintain a diary for a couple of years ....and i still have them wid me....!! they seem to be extremely funny now...the mention of my friends, my teenie-weenie crushes....and some things which seem to be soo kiddish...!! cant help but laugh at them.....
And then there was this incident which just turned my life upside down......probably then the emotional,thoughtful writer in me arose.....there were several things i kept writing ....it was definitely addictive yet enjoyable.....may be i found writing as a medium to exhale out so many things i held within....and i did not know what to do with all that I had penned down.....I used to show my poems to my friends....and felt great when i realised that there are some with whom i can share the "deep dark secrets" of my life....
then i saw arjun's blog which made me feel....."this is what i really need"......just cant believe i wrote almost 38 posts.....half of them are nonsense...but some very special and extremely close to my heart......
certain posts i wrote with utmost passion....some with great imagination.....and all I needed was a sense of peace , a satisfaction and it helped me connect with myself......I voiced my thoughts... and there were certain places i succeeded....and i felt rid of a burden...sighed with relief.....

sometimes just hit my head against the walls thinking what would be the next post about...(and unfortunately the walls collapsed...heee..!!).... sad jokes apart

......I still remember i had to go out somewhere and there was this idea for a post in my mind ....and I actually did not move from my place till i finished writing it all....!!! (i wish i had the same passion for my buks..!! i would have topped my class..haha..!!)

I tried not to be repetitive.....!! adding a little bit of spice and a little bit of me in each one of them..... sometimes i had great ideas but messed it up when i actually finalised them...
one of my favourite post is the one I wrote about hypocrisy...i thought it came out well....then there was also this one in which i mentioned my dream guy...that was quite gud i felt....


......Aha..!! dont think this is a farewell post. nah..!! this was just a rewind of "A journey to my world".....

when I stretched out my hand....u held them tight

when thick layers of fog surrounded me ....Your smiling face i saw at the end of the road...

U gave me the shoulder to cry

U gave me the reason to smile

U answered my unanswered questions

U never failed to convince me with your theories of life

U ended my search for a perfect friend

.....i miss your presence in my life....my best friend

i miss you....!!!

*birthday special*

i have been counting days in the calendar.....hmm...from august 24th....just for this day.....which is goin to end in another four five minutes....!! thats the worst thing about birthdays....

......yes , i feel older....i feel like a parent for my cousin.....i feel like a advisor for him....feel like a responsible daughter now....when my parents arent there......started to realise the value of hard earned money.....when my grandma takes out her much presrved 100 rupee notes.....yes i feel i have matured now.....finally....i have grown up.....!!

talking about today....it was kinda nice.....i missed my parents....but nonetheless my friends , my cousin, my grandma and the chocolate cake made it up.....my idiot cousin dint allow me to sleep till 2:30 in the morning.....but still i was firm about going to college.....and to be frank the only reason to go to college was....huh..."attention"....i mean everybody wants it atleast on their birthdays man...!! and my purpose was more or less fulfilled....
I mean i was really dissapointed coz i got hardly 2 calls at the stroke of midnight...i thought nobody remembers my birthday......
But the sunny morning came with a lot of surprises.....i mean my childhood buddy wished me....some tenth class buddies just surprised me with their wishes....then i was flooded by wishes...... and guess what RJ ARYAN wished me .....*blushes*(felt awesome).....i mean these are the things u wish for on your birthday...
grandma made a fabulous lunch......aha....traditional bong food...(jus luv u granny)...and then amita came home....and poor girl couldnt stay till the "cake cutting"....
then push , manasa and siri came home....had a blast with them(i LOVE YOU ALL)....had dinner in my pet restaurant ...and thats it.....Another 24th september passed by.....!!

never thought time will bring so much of change......never thought I would have to be so alert to protect my dignity.....I want that sense of fear to go away....this is how I have be .... a stronger person.....I should have the guts to raise my voice when I need to.....I have to make my presence felt....the goal is now to establish an identity ......the goal is to evolve.....

I still can't forget that scene......that last moment I saw the faces of my paternal grandparents.....yes they both helplessly stood outside the gate weeping and telling my parents......"We dont even know whether we will be able to see you all again"......



.......its flashing in front of my eyes since the time i heard about the demise of my grandmother.....a lady whom I regarded as the epitome of positivity.....it was her positivity that pleased me immensely.....



I saw it all....Her metamorphosis from a persona which commanded respect to the lady with childish spirits.... the age brought it all.....yes she did silently suffer a lot from the past year.....but still always positive......I adored her for that......



i used to sing songs to her when I went there.....and she was always the first one to wish me on my birthday.....and would ask about my plans.....the menu .....something that was really so nice.....





May god bless your soul.....

....i wish i could see you once after that last visit.....!!

"Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives,but none about his or her own"

- paulo coelho



Isn't that so true.....!!! yes i m totally hooked onto the most wonderful gift i could ever receive on Rakshabandhan......the international bestseller..."The Alchemist" ....I started leafing through the pages and thought that it may not be one of the kinds i usually read.....notion notion notion....

Once I started reading it..... i felt it answered many of my questions.... it focussed on things I have been seriously pondering about in the past week....soul enriching experience I must say .....the book seems to be like my story...as if someone penned down my life....those poetic phrases .....and certain descriptions just made me feel like hugging the author....."God Gifted" man.....I think you can imagine the effect of the book on me.....i have overflowing emotions.....and in that situation its difficult to organise your thoughts .....so I sign off with yet another phrase which is so artistic and above everything a fact....an unnoticed fact of life.....



"when u want something very badly.....the universe conspires it to happen"